Unwanted

I rarely talk about boys or relationship topics much. Maybe I'm just trying to avoid such questions. I really don't know. When friends around me turn to me for a shoulder to cry on or just watching them complain about being chased/wooed/teased I feel a little, if not, totally unwanted. I've never got a confession from anyone. Not one or half for that matter and it makes me feel sad. I've been told by a couple of people — besides my mum and dad — that I'm pretty and I'll remember their faces for life. But it's only a couple. Nothing much to boast about. And countless of people mistaking me for a foreigner, namely Indonesian or Philippine. Sheesh. I'd like to think that equals to an average looking girl with low self-esteem. Well, I kinda noticed a trend, that is most of them are skinny/slim, which I'm totally not. Despite how they look as long as you're thin you'll have a boyfriend. You might be ah-lian-ish and still get one. Gah. I really do hope that God planned out something good for me. You can't take away teenage romance from a girl and not ever give her any in life. I'm turning 20 soon. Living for almost two decades without knowing the touch of a lover or such.

Self-pity.



Maybe I intimidate people.